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No Complaining Allowed

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outside: 20°C
mood: blue
It's almost 2300h. I have a headache, but these days, I don't even want to take an Advil or anything for pain anymore. I'm not going to trash my liver for no reason. I can't go to bed though because I'm still waiting to pick up userinfoHusband Guy from work. It's been next to midnight pickups all last week as well. On a good day, he'll be done at around 1930h or 2000h. And they try not to work weekends. Try...

It's tough. I miss him. And I'm lonely. But there's nothing we can do about it. He has a job. I have a job. No complaining allowed.

Oh, he just IM'ed me. He's packing up to leave. Wow, they're packing it in early today.


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Jul. 29th, 2004 12:46 am (UTC)
I understand... </a></b></a> is at a conference in Dallas all week. All to the good - but I find I'm staying up too late rather than going to bed alone till I'm completely zonked. Part of life; not a great part.

Have a happy rest-of-evening together!
Jul. 29th, 2004 12:47 am (UTC)

I understand how you feel. I remember waiting for my boyfriend when he used to work the late shift. Sometimes, he would come home at 3am. =/
Jul. 29th, 2004 05:09 am (UTC)
waiting ...
I remember thoes days. After driving over from NJ to NW Philly, I would wait at the train station for the Mrs to show. As was the norm, either the train would be outrageously late, or she would have missed the the train that only comes every 30 min. SOooo, whatever I was preparing for dinner would be a bust. Now we are a 2 car family, a requirement given the complications in our schedules due to the twins. Late nights at work have to be disclosed ahead of schedule and visits to the pediatrician take precedent. The wife stayed late on Tuesday, didn't get home till 2130, always a challenge for daddy.
Jul. 29th, 2004 07:39 am (UTC)
Glad to know that I'm not the only one who feels lonely at night when the husband is working late. *sighs* He's -said- he'll limit his late nights, but it hasn't happened yet, and I'm starting to give up hope.

Bleh. Most people I talk to about this say, "Oh, you should be happy you never see each other." Say what?!?

If I wanted to sleep alone, I would have stayed single.
Jul. 30th, 2004 10:18 am (UTC)
"Oh, you should be happy you never see each other." Say what?!?

No one's said that to me yet, but that's pretty insensitive.

Not to plant paranoia in your head, but I kinda worry that it's an escape behaviour. Ie. he's [on some level] purposely burying himself in his work to stay away from me. I ask him every once in a while (about once a year or so, not very often) very gently, but he always says he isn't. And I believe him, but I want to keep a pulse on it... =S That and he does call me at random during the day because he just wants to hear my voice. I also call him at random for various reasons and he's always there.

I also don't know if I should put pressure on him to spend more time with me. Knowing his work, I know that he truly can't help the workload. So, to have more time with me, he'd have to quit his job and not only that, he'd have to end his career because any other job in the software industry would be just as crazy. And that's not an option.

But if there's no pressure to change, then we'll always maintain this status quo. =P

Bleh, thanks for listening =}
Jul. 30th, 2004 10:44 am (UTC)
It sounds like you're in my own head. I think all those things and more.

I ask John (a lot more than you do) whether he just doesn't want to be at home... he also insists that he just has too much to do.

that's pretty insensitive

You would not -believe- the things people have said to me about it... I tried talked to people (co-workers) because it's bothering me so badly, and now I've just stopped. I really don't need more bad thoughts. :}

*sighs* I could go on and on about this...

Jul. 30th, 2004 11:25 am (UTC)
We've started buying lottery tickets, it's pathetic =S Only when the jackpot is huge, though, so I don't feel so stupid. Because after all, lotteries are a tax for people who can't do Math (well, Probability, but whatever). =)
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