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weather: mixed
outside: 8°C
mood: blah
music: Jackie Chan -
我有我路向
I'm not sleeping well again. And when I do manage to sleep, I keep having short one-moment dreams.

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I'm sitting on the end of a couch, in a carpeted room, with my feet next to the corner of a coffee table... and that's it, nothing happens. There are other people in the room. I don't see them though. It's as if time has frozen between speakers of a calm but intense situation or conversation. I am the topic of discussion. There is a weighty issue that needs resolution. I don't know what it is. I'm just sitting there, staring at my feet, partially participating, partially zoning out.

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I'm leaning on a balcony railing, looking out onto the ocean.

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I'm far-sighted. That's the entire dream sequence. I don't see anything, I don't do anything, nothing happens. I'm just far-sighted.

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He and I are walking side by side. I have no idea who he is. I have no idea who I am. He disappears from beside me and reappears in front of me. I don't look at him, so I can't describe him. He presents me with a small, but beautiful trinket. I'm still not looking at him. 送給妳的 (For you). 你又來花錢了 (You're spending money [needlessly] again).

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They're not scary or disturbing dreams. They're not even that weird, but it says I'm waking up often. They were very calm and matter-of-fact. Even the last one was pretty devoid of emotion, although I do wish I could go back and apologize to him, whoever he is, for being such an ungracious wretch.

I'm really in no mood for the holiday season. Q1 2005 is bothering me too much to be able to enjoy anything right now.

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life_beautiful
Dec. 17th, 2004 05:03 pm (UTC)
I hope you sleep more restfully. I haven't had a decent night's sleep in what seems to be forever; I dream all night and even when I nap. Which is one of the reasons my doctor thinks I have narcolepsy... but I digress.
I love dreaming and the confused feeling it gives you when you wake up. There's the feeling of complete privacy because you can never exactly share with anyone what you saw or felt. There's also the mystery of why our minds work like they do and what they're trying to tell us...
scott_wells
Dec. 17th, 2004 06:33 pm (UTC)
My anti-depressants cause extremely weird and vivid dreams. I never sleep well. However, I can assure you that you've tapped into myt wife and I for that last dream. :) Thats very much a conversation like we would have. Here's hoping you get your wish though...
bride
Dec. 17th, 2004 07:54 pm (UTC)
you've tapped into myt wife and I for that last dream. :)

Heh, it's pretty much what I would say too. =) I have very mixed feelings about getting gifts. I love that he's thinking of me but buying stuff we don't need is a bad thing.
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