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kaseido does Thankful Thursdays every week... well, most weeks (no pressure! =D). I think it's a great idea and one that I'd like to take part in at random throughout the year. We piss and moan that commercialization has rendered our holidays and special observances meaningless and yet, we still feed the industry, right on cue, every year. What's wrong with THAT picture?

Anyway, enough about everyone else. Let's talk about me.

I'm the kind of person who sees the glass as half empty. But I'm also the kind of person who's glad there's anything in the glass at all.

I'm thankful for a lot of things, but here's today's:

Last night, we went to bed way early... like 2100h. He has the flu and I was just that tired. It's dumb that this is the only way we can have some time together, but I'll take whatever I can get.

We were just laying in bed dozing and chatting. It was the most time we've had together at a stretch in months. Every time the conversation got serious and intense, one of us would say or do something completely unexpected and silly/stupid and make us both laugh. It's good and bad at the same time. Sometimes it seems some things never get concluded or resolved. But it's good because laughing is always good.

I'm very thankful for the relationship I have (and have had) with userinfomy Husband.

So many people have trouble finding love. And these are people who are far more accomplished, smarter, quicker on their feet, far better looking and... just plain all around far better than I. And they still can't find a decent match.

Research papers, news articles, expert analyses on successful relationships can say all they like about what makes love last. I read as many as I can because I don't know what the hell I'm doing either; I want to know what I'm doing right so that I can continue to do it; I want to know what I might be doing wrong so that I can correct it... in time. But I still find that the premises and conclusions only partially apply to us.

I'm not a good wife. Not by a long shot. I'm not easy to get along with at close range. I have a very difficult personality and I know that. With all my neuroses, faults and shortcomings, I'm very fortunate to even be a wife at all.


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Jun. 3rd, 2005 04:22 pm (UTC)
I didn't get it from anywhere, so I guess it's mine =)
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Jun. 4th, 2005 05:09 pm (UTC)
They say the third time you quote something it becomes yours.

Eh? I don't get that... I can quote George Bernard Shaw a billion times over* but it still doesn't make it mine.

* Those who can, do. Those who can't, ...
Jun. 3rd, 2005 04:01 am (UTC)
You and 'Husband Guy' sound like you have a wonderful, healthy relationship and I'm really, really happy for you. It gives the rest of us hope ;)

I'm glad you posted this though because I found myself able to relate to some things. At somewhere around four or five months right now, I'm in a fairly new relationship and it's the first one in awhile to go well, but I don't know why that is because I'm not particularly different than I have been in other relationships. Granted, Alex and I communicate far better than I have with anyone else and I'm sure that's a big factor, but still! Sometimes I'm like "I don't get it, I don't really think I'm that great". Not that I think badly of myself, but I think you know what I mean.

At any rate, there wasn't really a point to this ramble except to say that I'm glad you posted this because it makes me feel less weird/alone in my perspective. :P
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Jun. 3rd, 2005 04:30 am (UTC)
Better than me. Um, duh?

No. Better than _I_. Because it's actually supposed to be "better than I am", the "am" is implied. =)

Re: the wife thing

Thanks =)
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Jun. 3rd, 2005 04:41 am (UTC)
"far more accomplished than I am"
"smarter than I am"
"quicker on their feet than I am"
"better looking than I am"
"better than I am"

Jun. 3rd, 2005 05:13 am (UTC)
enough about everyone else. Let's talk about me.


I'm happy for you. It's wonderful you and your husband still count your blessings.
Jun. 3rd, 2005 01:11 pm (UTC)
I think most people would be enviable of you. I think a relationship is based on a mix of plenty of effort, patience, compromise and the right timing. :)
Jun. 4th, 2005 12:34 am (UTC)
Sometimes it seems some things never get concluded or resolved. But it's good because laughing is always good.

would you still have gotten married if things had been like that then? or waited till they were resolved?
Jun. 4th, 2005 01:27 am (UTC)
Things were _always_ like that from the very beginning. =)

There have been issues that have taken 10+ years to "resolve" and only because it's become a moot point. Some things you can just drop like that, some things you can't, but we both agree that these can drop.
Jun. 4th, 2005 02:51 am (UTC)
love has managed to endure all, then

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