The Bride of the First House (bride) wrote,
The Bride of the First House

Ponder, Ponder, Brood and Mull

weather: clear
outside: 7.0°C
mood: ...
Doing some reflection tonight on a difficult situation.

It's that sinking, helpless feeling you get when something you really don't want to happen is just about a done deal.

The obvious thing would be to talk to the right people about it and prevent it from happening. But it's not that simple. It's never that simple when it's you. =}

I could potentially prevent it from happening, but that's not 100% certain. It could be worse if I couldn't prevent it from happening and my feelings were made known in the process. Even if confidentiality is kept, the circumstances of the situation are unique enough that I'd be identified immediately as having spoken up.

I feel like the only thing I can do is remove myself from the situation. And I don't want to. I'm happy with where I am and I'm really angry that I've been put in the position of having to consider that.

I could just say nothing and do nothing and see how it plays out. But that's leaving a lot more up to chance than I'm comfortable with.

I don't know. I really don't know.

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